Is it human nature to just really want something you can’t have? Or what about desperately wanting something that is so incredibly bad for you? You know it’s bad for you, but you just don’t care and you torture yourself over and over until you finally realize you need to be honest with yourself and move on. I seem to have this innate ability to make myself miserable. I get myself into situations where 80% of the time, I am unhappy with it, but that 20% just seems so worth it that I keep riding on the rollercoaster of emotions. Why do I do this? I have no idea. If you know, by all means, clue me in.
I just recently abandoned a relationship that was so bad for me, but that I liked so much. It was one that had been going on for several months off and on with certain perks, but I mostly felt confused and at times used throughout the relationship. So, I called it off. I decided if I really respected and loved myself, I wouldn’t keep torturing myself. So, today is day two of my new change, and it actually feels worse than day one. Yesterday I was surprisingly happy given the circumstances. Today I woke up in a nostalgic fog missing it all. What is a girl to do?
